Penakut?

Kenapa harus berbohong? Adakah dengan menipu dan memutar belitkan kenyataan dan fakta membuatkan kamu rasa hebat? Tak tahu ke sekarang kat dunia ni Tuhan bayar cash? Maybe it won't happen to you, but how about your family? What goes around comes around.. 


Jika kenyataan itu menakutkan diri kamu, tidak pernah kah kamu terfikir tentang penerimaan saya? Atau kamu sebenarnya memang takut untuk berdepan dengan kenyataan? Mungkin saya juga? Face the fear man, or it will chase you forever. By the way, video ini untuk kamu; PENAKUT. 

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku

Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku

Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta

Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku

Ini tidak adil

Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga

Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku

Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk

Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan

Beban yang tak pernah cuba kau ringankan

Kau bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut

Mengakui cinta kepadamu

Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan

Bila bersamamu

Kau bukan milikku

Dan engkau pun tahu

Kau bukan milikku

Dragon 2012.

Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru. Ye, macam dah lewat 29 hari kan? Hahahaha.. Kebizian yang melanda menyebabkan aku cam terlupa nak meluangkan masa kat sini. Well, cuti sekolah last December + Christmas + New Year adelah back-to-back busy. Tema hari-hari adelah bangun pergi kerja, balik kerja, online sejam dua, pastu tido, then bangun, pergi keja and the routine are all the same.. Takde banyak sangat masa untuk spend ke tempat lain. Abes kuat pun family aku datang PD last month. But then they all off to Langkawi for vacation. Dan tinggal aku sorang kat sini. Dem!

Tahun ni tahun aku.. It's a Dragon. A water dragon to be precise. I've always love anything about dragon because I think it was full of mystery.. But I don't think this is my year. I've started the New Year celebration with a tears, and alone. No company, no one beside me. Kebetulan yang tak disengajakan, rahsia yang tersingkap, kebenaran yang menyakitkan, semuanya datang satu demi satu. Sampai aku tertanya-tanya sendiri. Adakah ini ujian atau petanda? Memang tak disangka - sangka the secret was reveal in unexpected way. Well, the damage is done. Sedih, marah, kecewa dan emosi memang membuatkan kita sakit. Dan aku tak nafikan aku mendapat impak yang besar disebabkan menda tu. Naga air kan? Nice. 

Untuk seseorang, tahniah atas berita yang awak bagitau saya haritu. [You know who you are.] Saya tumpang gembira mendengarnya. Walaupun saya sedih kerana akan kehilangan awak, tapi saya akan sentiasa mendoakan kebahagiaan yang berpanjangan untuk awak. You are the best thing ever happen in my life, and I will always cherish memories between us. "Sometimes it lasts in love, sometimes it hurts instead - Adele."

ADELE - CHASING PAVEMENTS

Sangat suka Adele lately.. Her voice is different.. I love most of her song and here is one of my favorite.. Enjoy~

I've made up my mind,

Don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong, I am right

Don't need to look no further,

This ain't lust

I know this is love

But, if I tell the world

I'll never say enough

'cause it was not said to you

And that's exactly what I need to do

If I end up with you

[Chorus]

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up

And fly around in circles

Waitin' as my heart drops

And my back begins to tingle

Finally, could this be it

[Chorus]

Or should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements

Should I just keep no chasin' pavements

Ohh oh

[Chorus x2] 

CRY ME A RIVER.

People used to say that whenever you're crying, you'll feels better. Is it? I don't know bout others but for me, it works sometimes only. 

Actually what is the main reason women cry? Being one, I've figured that we have so many feelings which is hard to say so we express it by tears. There are tears of joy, tears of sad, tears of pain and who knows? Many more. When we're happy, we cry a tears of joy. When we're touched by your kind gestures, we cry also. When we're get angry, upset, hurt, tears are always been the company. 

I'm not a crybaby but I'll cry when I cannot take it anymore. Perasaan marah, geram, sakit hati tahap karma selalunya buat aku jadi camtu. Nak cakap pun dah tak terkeluar, tau-tau dah mencurah-curah je air mata. Hahaha.. But after a short while, it will stop. Kadang - kadang, continuously sampai a few hours. So what? Perempuan memang penuh dengan ekspresi dan emosi kan. 

Someone pernah cakap dulu yang aku perlu belajar untuk speak out apa yang aku rasa. Of course, they was talking bout my feelings. Katanya, aku selalu keep everything inside and it is not good. Heh, since when aku mesti open up for everything? Saya bukan jenis yang suka "Ekspresi Diriku". Kalau aku rasa boleh share, then I'll speak up. If else, silence is the best. After all, bukan semua orang boleh faham apa yang kita rasa kan?




Apasal la tetiba aku open book pasal crying emotion whatever nih? Entahla. No specific reason kot. Maybe sebab baru - baru ni ada unexpected things happen kot. No offence kay, this is not about you. It's just me.