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Remember I've blog about writing exam? To my surprise, I was shortlisted candidates for 2nd interview! SInce it was my first interview, I was so nervous and freaking damn cuak. Yelah, sebelum ni pergi mana - mana interview takdelah pulak pernah rasa stress macam ni. Tapi mungkin sebab formality surrounding, rasa stress tu berganda. Looking at other candidates buat aku lagi lagi macam errrk! Tapi takpe, bertenang. Macam-macam doa aku baca untuk hilangkan rasa nervous ni. Haih.

Makan lunch sorang-sorang.  @MCD KLSENTRAL

Mind my shining face. Hehehe..

The session went quite well, despite I'm damn freaking nervous. Hahahaha.. But I was hoping I could do more to impress. Biasalah kan. Alang - alang tu, meh sini I nak share tips untuk pergi interview. Based on my experience on the day laa..

1. Get to know the company. Read.A.Lot.
2. If you're still working, make sure you know your current company as well.
3. It's an extra marks there if you could converse in English VERY WELL. Not by broken English.
4. If you are nervous, DO NOT SHOW IT. Hide it in your handbag!

Details? Ask Mr Google please. Hahaha.. So, I'll be waiting for the result. Maybe, next month? Hope for the best!


Sekejap je dah sampai Julai. Bermakna kita dah mengharungi separuh daripada tahun 2012 ni. Resolusi 2012 anda sudah tercapaikah? Haahahaha... Ke nak bawak tahun hadapan? Relax, you still have about....5 month to go okay? Gambatte ne! Puasa pun bakal menjelang, bawak-bawakla ganti puasa tahun lepas ye kakak.. Hehehehe..

PROMISE. HOW MUCH DOES IT COST YOU?

Promise - Is a commitment by someone TO DO or NOT TO TO something. 

*Source; Mr. Wiki.

Ring a bell? How many of you make a promise, and able to fulfill it? How many of you, promise someone and you TOTALLY forgot about it? I bet EVERYONE does. But, how many of you make amends by your mistakes? Have you ever cross your mind that the one we make promise wait for hours, cancel a few things just to be able to get NOTHING? Yes. N.O.T.H.I.N.G. What a waste.

I've been in both situation. Promise someone, and forgot about it. Someone promise me, and it happens that they broke their promise. What it feels like? Hell. For both. Feels sorry and couldn't say in words how sorry I am for not being able to fulfill my promise. And it hurts me that much also when someone break their promiseS. Yes, obviously, and purposely with capital S because it happens again, again, and again. 

Did I mention that I've such a good heart? I'd rather hurt myself than hurt someone else. This is usually happens;

"Hello, hi. Err. I'm sorry I couldn't make it yesterday. I've got more important things to do, and I can't help it but to go,"

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"I know I've promised you earlier, but I hope you can understand my situation,"

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"Someone call last night and I've to go to ____________  just to make sure everything is okay. What to do, I've the responsibility to carry whether I like it or not,"

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Sounds all the same? IT IS. Does it hurt that much? IT IS and even more, I couldn't do anything other than show a fake smile and says, "It's okay," I don't have heart to be sarcasm, or be mean by throwing all the curses and tantrum for those people you know. Sometimes, it's just slipped out from my mouth. Err.. Otherwise, I just keep it to myself, and sakit hati sorang-sorang. 

This is what I REALLY wanted to say;

"You can go anywhere you like, but it would be nicer if ONLY you inform me earlier. Save the time, save the punches, kicked-your **S, girl-fight unnecessary things that might happens later,"

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"Why it is only ME who have to understand your situation whilst you're not? 

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"You and your responsibility alone? Are you trying to say that I've NOTHING ELSE to do but to wait for you?"

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Duh, give me a break. If you really had important things to attend I don't mind receiving a call or sms saying that you couldn't make it. After all, you DID try to make it. Alas, you DID call. It's good enough. Lagipun kita hanya merancang, Tuhan yang tentukan. So that I can do OTHER things else. But if you're happened to leave it just like that, hoping that I can understand so-call-your-responsibility, what's the point make a promise to me? 

Kita orang Melayu, penuh dengan adat dan tatasusila. Kalau orang lain sound janji Melayu, tau pulak hot, panas, meLAYUkan orang whatever. But you yourself doesn't give a good example, macamana orang nak ikut? Macam ketam mengajar anak berjalan tegak. Tapi anda sejenis ketam ke? Pffftt..

Tiba - tiba rasa macam nak bermadah pujangga lak;

"Lembu perpegang pada tali,

Manusia berpegang pada janji."

Rasa - rasanya lah kan, anda manusia ke lembu? Tengok cermin ye, kalau tak nampak, turn on the light.