ADELE - CHASING PAVEMENTS

Sangat suka Adele lately.. Her voice is different.. I love most of her song and here is one of my favorite.. Enjoy~

I've made up my mind,

Don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong, I am right

Don't need to look no further,

This ain't lust

I know this is love

But, if I tell the world

I'll never say enough

'cause it was not said to you

And that's exactly what I need to do

If I end up with you

[Chorus]

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up

And fly around in circles

Waitin' as my heart drops

And my back begins to tingle

Finally, could this be it

[Chorus]

Or should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements

Should I just keep no chasin' pavements

Ohh oh

[Chorus x2] 

CRY ME A RIVER.

People used to say that whenever you're crying, you'll feels better. Is it? I don't know bout others but for me, it works sometimes only. 

Actually what is the main reason women cry? Being one, I've figured that we have so many feelings which is hard to say so we express it by tears. There are tears of joy, tears of sad, tears of pain and who knows? Many more. When we're happy, we cry a tears of joy. When we're touched by your kind gestures, we cry also. When we're get angry, upset, hurt, tears are always been the company. 

I'm not a crybaby but I'll cry when I cannot take it anymore. Perasaan marah, geram, sakit hati tahap karma selalunya buat aku jadi camtu. Nak cakap pun dah tak terkeluar, tau-tau dah mencurah-curah je air mata. Hahaha.. But after a short while, it will stop. Kadang - kadang, continuously sampai a few hours. So what? Perempuan memang penuh dengan ekspresi dan emosi kan. 

Someone pernah cakap dulu yang aku perlu belajar untuk speak out apa yang aku rasa. Of course, they was talking bout my feelings. Katanya, aku selalu keep everything inside and it is not good. Heh, since when aku mesti open up for everything? Saya bukan jenis yang suka "Ekspresi Diriku". Kalau aku rasa boleh share, then I'll speak up. If else, silence is the best. After all, bukan semua orang boleh faham apa yang kita rasa kan?




Apasal la tetiba aku open book pasal crying emotion whatever nih? Entahla. No specific reason kot. Maybe sebab baru - baru ni ada unexpected things happen kot. No offence kay, this is not about you. It's just me. 

MAJLIS SANA DAN SINI.

Next week da start cuti sekolah.. Yeay! *Untuk mereka yang sekolah* Untuk yang keje hotel macam aku ni? Preparation for busy time during school holiday la.. Yang paling xbest dah tentunya xdapat cuti. Jangan mimpila nak dapat cuti saje-saje. Apa? Family ajak gi LANGKAWI? Hah? BFF ajak gi SINGAPORE? Oh em jie, kawan saya kawen juge? Geget jarila jawabnya.. 




Dormate + classmate aku sorang lagi bakal mengikat tali pertunangan Ahad ni. Anom, seriously I'm very happy for you dear. Kinkin dah lepas. Insyaallah walimah dalam masa yang terdekat.. Cz? Err.. Kata Anom dia tunggu Datuk. Hahaha.. Tataula pulak datuk mana satu.. Datuk kepada cucu-cucunya kah?




Dengar diorang bercerita pasal hantaran, kenduri, tetamu whatever memang seronok. Sungguh aku rasa terkilan sebab tak dapat join. But what to do? Tapi ramai betul kawan aku buat majlis hujung tahun ni. Jealous plak bila dengar diorang nak kahwin. Hahaha.. Pastu soalan tak boleh blah; 

"Kitorang ni dah tengah kira hari ni, kau bila lagi nak kawen?"

Errrkk.. Adakah itu sejenis soalan yang aku kena jawab? Tak nak jawab boleh? Biasanya aku akan jawab dengan soalan lain, 

"Hey, tema nanti kaler ape?"

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atau

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"Weh, aku rasa macam aku nak gi toilet la, mana toilet rumah kau?"

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Dan lari tanpa tengok reaction mereka. Hahaha.. 

Siapa cakap aku tak nak kawen? By the way, ada ke manusia NORMAL yang tak nak kahwin? Tell me. Kalau ada pun agaknya orang tu sakit kot. Budak tadika sekarang pon dah pandai cakap pasal kahwin tau. Lagi kan pulak orang dah lah lama tinggal sekolah tadika. Hahaha..

Kalau diberi pilihan, of course aku tak tolak. Berchenta lama-lama pun kalau takde hala tuju what for? Tak kan nak timbun dosa kering hari-hari kan? Tapi itulah, nak tunggu yang betul-betul boleh pikul tanggungjawab, boleh jadi ketua family, mana ada tepi-tepi jalan. Hahahaha.. Jangan mimpilah nak cari suami sehebat nabi kalau diri sendiri pon tak berapa nak betul kan? 

So many things come in one shot really pissed me off. I want to share, but I don't think people will understand it. From the outside, people see me as a normal person. But who's know deep inside I'm struggling? I don't know if I make a correct decision, or meet a right person. Duh, headache! 

Okay, enough ramblings. 

Iitadakimasu!!

Last time diorang pergi makan aku mesti takde. Either aku keje petang, atau aku ada hal lain.. Kali ni, tak tunggu lama terus on je lepas orang ajak. :P

 Beliau di atas adalah Cik Bos. Hehe..

My favourite all the time; Meatball Bolognese!!

Mushroom soup & Do do do the dew~

Kak Faridah dan Chocolate Float nye;

 Aku dan err..meatball? :P

Dia cakap Smoked BBQ Chicken Wing, 

tapi wing dia aku rasa dah terbang.. Hahahaha..

Chicken Hawaiian Pizza;

Sama seperti di atas..

Untuk orang yang bermurah hati membelanje, 

honto ni arigatou gozaimasu.. 

Next time mana plak? 

To be advised. ;)

UNUSUALLY EMO.

Sejak akhir-akhir ni, rasa macam banyak sangat perkara yang melibatkan emosi jadi kat aku. Ajak member teman makan dia decline rasa macam nak pindah rumah, skandal busy tak nak reply mesej aku terus delete nombor beliau, bff mintak peti ais plasmaclusterhanyadarisharp aku rasa macam nak siku, Mujur belum ada bf, kot tak, pening dia nak layan emosi ai ni.. Things not going smoothly as they always did. Bleach manga takde update pun dah buat aku rasa macam nak pulang balik broadband! Oke, itu adalah exaggerated. Adakah aku dah mempunyai simptom mid-life crisis? Weh,baru 23 mid-life mende..


Tengok sekarang member-member menyusun kad jemputan kahwin, rasa macam sedikit cemburu. Kalau tak salah aku, bulan Disember ni je ada dua orang kawan aku yang bakal naik pelamin. Sorang lagi nak bertunang. Harapan nak attend wedding bagai tu? Tak payahla simpan. Confirm dah tak boleh cuti. Sorang kawen kat Kuala Kangsar, then sorang lagi kat Muar, pastu member yang nak tunang tu lak kat Batu Pahat. Aku? Kat Port Dickson. Camano? Tarikh pun dekat-dekat lak tu.

Aku tumpang bahagia untuk kawan-kawan yang bakal naik pelamin, dan yang bakal ada tunang. Saya sangat jealous oke. But I'm very happy for them. Guess it's not my time yet huh? Hahaha.. Apasal rambling tak masal nih asmaul? Tu la, kan dah cakap tadi, being unusually emo. Enough said. 

THE SCRIPT - THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED

Somehow this band are really caught my eyes on them.. 

Just loved this one very much!

Enjoy.. :)

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand,
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am? "

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand,
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street,
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving..

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here,"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go..

[Chorus:]
'Cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street,
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving..

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl,
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world..

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved,
Maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner,
'Cause you'll know it's just for you,
I'm the man who can't be moved,

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move..

Back To Basic.

Lama tak jenguk-kat sini.. Almost one year.. Since I've started living in Port Dickson, masa nak online almost zero. Nil. Yela, kemudahan takde kot. Laptop dah jadi hak milik bersama kat Segamat, broadband dah tukar milikan, tinggal apa? Nasib baik E72 boleh pakai free wifi.. Hahahaha... Kesian.

Masuk October ni, dah setahun setengah aku berstatus penduduk tetap kat Port Dickson. Macam-macam dah jadi kan dalam masa setahun ni.. Since I'm someone else's gf turn to single, daripada training sekarang dah permanent kat Avillion Port Dickson, dulu takde kenderaan sekarang dah bawak *Ombak, (lagi panjang langkah), hehehe.. Rasa macam nk tukar angin plak ek? But actually I'm doing fine here.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER?

Zaman belajar dah lama berlalu, dan sekarang mula memasuki alam yang lebih mencabar. ZAMAN PEKERJAAN. Ramai orang bertanya, "Nak kerja kerajaan ke atau swasta?" It makes me think, whats the difference? As long as I work, and I've gain a halal income. Should it be a big problem then?

Kerja mana-mana pon sama. But sometimes I don't understand why there's a people still having issue regarding this. Let's say macam aku yang baru mula bekerja, di sektor perhotelan. I'm enjoying my works. Walaupun stress bila busy, cuti sekolah, kawan tunang tak leh pergi. Tapi so far aku enjoy kerja aku. Aku belajar banyak benda bila berhadapan dengan guest hotel. It's a new experience, dan aku juga tak lari daripada buat kesilapan, kan? It's part of learning tough. It's not like I don't want to find other job, tapi untuk cari pengalaman aku rasa tak salah untuk aku stay. Aku tak nafikan masih ada orang yang pandang serong bila tau aku kerja dalam bidang perhotelan. Kenapa? Sebab hotel tempat orang buat maksiat ke? Sebab hotel ada serve arak? Non-halal food? Camtu? Narrow minded betul.

Kalau camtu aku pon boleh cakap, kerja kerajaan pon bukan bersih sangat. Claim OT tapi curi tulang, rasuah berleluasa. Sogok sana sogok sini. Pecah amanah. So itu kategori apa pulak? Kerja yang mulia? Pada aku kerja mana-mana pon sama. Janji kita ikhlas dalam kerja, dan amanah pada tanggungjawab yang diberikan. Tak gitu? Aku pun tak pandai agama nak cakap pasal sumber halal haram semua. Aku percaya rezeki Tuhan janjkan pada manusia. Selagi kita berusaha, hasilnya pasti ada. Kan? Tak kisahla kerja swasta atau kerja kerajaan. Lagipun, zaman sekarang bukan cam zaman dulu-dulu yang orang dok pandang tinggi kat keje 'gomen'. Bak kata mak aku pon, "Nak cari husband, biarla ekonominya kukuh. Tak kisahla kerja kerajaan ke swasta ke. Baik budi pekerti dan elok agamanya, cukuplah tu." Hahahaha... Saya sayang mak saya! (eh?)

Untuk di luar sana yang mungkin ada dilema seperti ni, usah takut. Kerjalah selagi ianya halal. Tawaran yang lebih baik mungkin menanti di kala anda masih mencari. Usaha dan tawakal itu penting. Eceh, pandainya aku cakap. Padahal diri sendiri masih terkontang-kanting. Hahaha..