PROMISE. HOW MUCH DOES IT COST YOU?

Promise - Is a commitment by someone TO DO or NOT TO TO something. 

*Source; Mr. Wiki.

Ring a bell? How many of you make a promise, and able to fulfill it? How many of you, promise someone and you TOTALLY forgot about it? I bet EVERYONE does. But, how many of you make amends by your mistakes? Have you ever cross your mind that the one we make promise wait for hours, cancel a few things just to be able to get NOTHING? Yes. N.O.T.H.I.N.G. What a waste.

I've been in both situation. Promise someone, and forgot about it. Someone promise me, and it happens that they broke their promise. What it feels like? Hell. For both. Feels sorry and couldn't say in words how sorry I am for not being able to fulfill my promise. And it hurts me that much also when someone break their promiseS. Yes, obviously, and purposely with capital S because it happens again, again, and again. 

Did I mention that I've such a good heart? I'd rather hurt myself than hurt someone else. This is usually happens;

"Hello, hi. Err. I'm sorry I couldn't make it yesterday. I've got more important things to do, and I can't help it but to go,"

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"I know I've promised you earlier, but I hope you can understand my situation,"

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"Someone call last night and I've to go to ____________  just to make sure everything is okay. What to do, I've the responsibility to carry whether I like it or not,"

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Sounds all the same? IT IS. Does it hurt that much? IT IS and even more, I couldn't do anything other than show a fake smile and says, "It's okay," I don't have heart to be sarcasm, or be mean by throwing all the curses and tantrum for those people you know. Sometimes, it's just slipped out from my mouth. Err.. Otherwise, I just keep it to myself, and sakit hati sorang-sorang. 

This is what I REALLY wanted to say;

"You can go anywhere you like, but it would be nicer if ONLY you inform me earlier. Save the time, save the punches, kicked-your **S, girl-fight unnecessary things that might happens later,"

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"Why it is only ME who have to understand your situation whilst you're not? 

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"You and your responsibility alone? Are you trying to say that I've NOTHING ELSE to do but to wait for you?"

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Duh, give me a break. If you really had important things to attend I don't mind receiving a call or sms saying that you couldn't make it. After all, you DID try to make it. Alas, you DID call. It's good enough. Lagipun kita hanya merancang, Tuhan yang tentukan. So that I can do OTHER things else. But if you're happened to leave it just like that, hoping that I can understand so-call-your-responsibility, what's the point make a promise to me? 

Kita orang Melayu, penuh dengan adat dan tatasusila. Kalau orang lain sound janji Melayu, tau pulak hot, panas, meLAYUkan orang whatever. But you yourself doesn't give a good example, macamana orang nak ikut? Macam ketam mengajar anak berjalan tegak. Tapi anda sejenis ketam ke? Pffftt..

Tiba - tiba rasa macam nak bermadah pujangga lak;

"Lembu perpegang pada tali,

Manusia berpegang pada janji."

Rasa - rasanya lah kan, anda manusia ke lembu? Tengok cermin ye, kalau tak nampak, turn on the light.