CRY ME A RIVER.

People used to say that whenever you're crying, you'll feels better. Is it? I don't know bout others but for me, it works sometimes only. 

Actually what is the main reason women cry? Being one, I've figured that we have so many feelings which is hard to say so we express it by tears. There are tears of joy, tears of sad, tears of pain and who knows? Many more. When we're happy, we cry a tears of joy. When we're touched by your kind gestures, we cry also. When we're get angry, upset, hurt, tears are always been the company. 

I'm not a crybaby but I'll cry when I cannot take it anymore. Perasaan marah, geram, sakit hati tahap karma selalunya buat aku jadi camtu. Nak cakap pun dah tak terkeluar, tau-tau dah mencurah-curah je air mata. Hahaha.. But after a short while, it will stop. Kadang - kadang, continuously sampai a few hours. So what? Perempuan memang penuh dengan ekspresi dan emosi kan. 

Someone pernah cakap dulu yang aku perlu belajar untuk speak out apa yang aku rasa. Of course, they was talking bout my feelings. Katanya, aku selalu keep everything inside and it is not good. Heh, since when aku mesti open up for everything? Saya bukan jenis yang suka "Ekspresi Diriku". Kalau aku rasa boleh share, then I'll speak up. If else, silence is the best. After all, bukan semua orang boleh faham apa yang kita rasa kan?




Apasal la tetiba aku open book pasal crying emotion whatever nih? Entahla. No specific reason kot. Maybe sebab baru - baru ni ada unexpected things happen kot. No offence kay, this is not about you. It's just me. 

MAJLIS SANA DAN SINI.

Next week da start cuti sekolah.. Yeay! *Untuk mereka yang sekolah* Untuk yang keje hotel macam aku ni? Preparation for busy time during school holiday la.. Yang paling xbest dah tentunya xdapat cuti. Jangan mimpila nak dapat cuti saje-saje. Apa? Family ajak gi LANGKAWI? Hah? BFF ajak gi SINGAPORE? Oh em jie, kawan saya kawen juge? Geget jarila jawabnya.. 




Dormate + classmate aku sorang lagi bakal mengikat tali pertunangan Ahad ni. Anom, seriously I'm very happy for you dear. Kinkin dah lepas. Insyaallah walimah dalam masa yang terdekat.. Cz? Err.. Kata Anom dia tunggu Datuk. Hahaha.. Tataula pulak datuk mana satu.. Datuk kepada cucu-cucunya kah?




Dengar diorang bercerita pasal hantaran, kenduri, tetamu whatever memang seronok. Sungguh aku rasa terkilan sebab tak dapat join. But what to do? Tapi ramai betul kawan aku buat majlis hujung tahun ni. Jealous plak bila dengar diorang nak kahwin. Hahaha.. Pastu soalan tak boleh blah; 

"Kitorang ni dah tengah kira hari ni, kau bila lagi nak kawen?"

Errrkk.. Adakah itu sejenis soalan yang aku kena jawab? Tak nak jawab boleh? Biasanya aku akan jawab dengan soalan lain, 

"Hey, tema nanti kaler ape?"

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"Weh, aku rasa macam aku nak gi toilet la, mana toilet rumah kau?"

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Dan lari tanpa tengok reaction mereka. Hahaha.. 

Siapa cakap aku tak nak kawen? By the way, ada ke manusia NORMAL yang tak nak kahwin? Tell me. Kalau ada pun agaknya orang tu sakit kot. Budak tadika sekarang pon dah pandai cakap pasal kahwin tau. Lagi kan pulak orang dah lah lama tinggal sekolah tadika. Hahaha..

Kalau diberi pilihan, of course aku tak tolak. Berchenta lama-lama pun kalau takde hala tuju what for? Tak kan nak timbun dosa kering hari-hari kan? Tapi itulah, nak tunggu yang betul-betul boleh pikul tanggungjawab, boleh jadi ketua family, mana ada tepi-tepi jalan. Hahahaha.. Jangan mimpilah nak cari suami sehebat nabi kalau diri sendiri pon tak berapa nak betul kan? 

So many things come in one shot really pissed me off. I want to share, but I don't think people will understand it. From the outside, people see me as a normal person. But who's know deep inside I'm struggling? I don't know if I make a correct decision, or meet a right person. Duh, headache! 

Okay, enough ramblings.